Welcome to The Gutless Ninja.
This is a blog about me, my battle with Ulcerative Colitis, coming to terms with having a stoma, my outlook on life and.. Reading. I love reading so I have to fit that in somewhere. I wouldn’t say I’m addicted. I can stop if I want to.. Just as soon as I’ve finished the next chapter.
So. About me. I’ve always found that a tough question. My mind goes blank. I no longer know who I am. I’ve forgotten my likes and dislikes. How old am I?! But I’ll try because.. Well, just because.
I’m female, British, Muslim, in my mid twenties and I have a degree in Islamic Theology. I am also a teacher, a daughter and a sister. I try to be a good daughter (don’t always succeed) and an annoying sister (I have much more success with this one). I try to keep a positive outlook despite my struggles, my faith plays a huge part in my life and I have a weird sense of humour.
My battle with UC has been a tough one. It’s been a bloody long battle, filled with a wonderful concoction of drugs, side effects and major abdominal surgery during which I had half my guts removed (yep, that’s where the ‘Gutless’ comes from) and the end of my small intestine brought out onto my abdomen so I could still poop.
Last year, in October 2014, I had another operation to remove my rectum and remaining colon and have my bottom sewn up. AKA Barbie Butt. My bag is now permanent. I’m still recovering from this surgery as it was as major as they come. It’s knocked me sideways but I WILL keep fighting! Giving up is not an option.
I’m quite open about these things and yes, you’ll come across posts which may make you think: ‘THIS GIRL HAS NO SHAME!! CALL THE HARAM POLICE!!’ If you’re one of those people, good luck to you because life doesn’t always go the way you want it to, sometimes we have to create a new normal and live with that. I’m not going to sugar-coat anything. I’m going to tell it like it is because 5 million sufferers of IBD (Inflammatory Bowel Disease) around the world will tell you that we need more awareness.
If you’re still reading by this point, I salute you. You’ll learn more about me and what I go through on a daily basis through my posts. You’ll even learn what it’s like to poop into a bag. And how much I love this little bit of me which has the audacity to show itself when it should be hidden.
My reason for starting this blog? Four years ago, life was very different. I had newly graduated, got my first job and was still excited to receive my wages every month. Then BAM!! Life as I knew it had changed but I was still foolishly naive, thinking it was a blip. Ha! Little did I know how drastically my life would be altered forever.
You’ll be able to piece together the next four years (and counting) through my posts.
Feel free to contact me at: firstname.lastname@example.org
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