Who is The Gutless Ninja?

Welcome to The Gutless Ninja.

This is a blog about me, my battle with Ulcerative Colitis, coming to terms with having a stoma, my outlook on life and.. Reading. I love reading so I have to fit that in somewhere. I wouldn’t say I’m addicted. I can stop if I want to.. Just as soon as I’ve finished the next chapter.

So. About me. I’ve always found that a tough question. My mind goes blank. I no longer know who I am. I’ve forgotten my likes and dislikes. How old am I?! But I’ll try because.. Well, just because.
I’m female, British, Muslim, in my mid twenties and I have a degree in Islamic Theology. I am also a teacher, a daughter and a sister. I try to be a good daughter (don’t always succeed) and an annoying sister (I have much more success with this one). I try to keep a positive outlook despite my struggles, my faith plays a huge part in my life and I have a weird sense of humour.

My battle with UC has been a tough one. It’s been a bloody long battle, filled with a wonderful concoction of drugs, side effects and major abdominal surgery during which I had half my guts removed (yep, that’s where the ‘Gutless’ comes from) and the end of my small intestine brought out onto my abdomen so I could still poop.

Last year, in October 2014, I had another operation to remove my rectum and remaining colon and have my bottom sewn up. AKA Barbie Butt. My bag is now permanent. I’m still recovering from this surgery as it was as major as they come. It’s knocked me sideways but I WILL keep fighting! Giving up is not an option.

I’m quite open about these things and yes, you’ll come across posts which may make you think: ‘THIS GIRL HAS NO SHAME!! CALL THE HARAM POLICE!!’ If you’re one of those people, good luck to you because life doesn’t always go the way you want it to, sometimes we have to create a new normal and live with that. I’m not going to sugar-coat anything. I’m going to tell it like it is because 5 million sufferers of IBD (Inflammatory Bowel Disease) around the world will tell you that we need more awareness.

If you’re still reading by this point, I salute you. You’ll learn more about me and what I go through on a daily basis through my posts. You’ll even learn what it’s like to poop into a bag. And how much I love this little bit of me which has the audacity to show itself when it should be hidden.

My reason for starting this blog? Four years ago, life was very different. I had newly graduated, got my first job and was still excited to receive my wages every month. Then BAM!! Life as I knew it had changed but I was still foolishly naive, thinking it was a blip. Ha! Little did I know how drastically my life would be altered forever.
You’ll be able to piece together the next four years (and counting) through my posts.

Feel free to contact me at: gutlessninja@hotmail.com

Or pop over and say hi on the Facebook page.


24 thoughts on “Who is The Gutless Ninja?

  1. May Allah continue to give immense strength to you . MashAllah, your positive outlook towards this whole thing goes on to show how strong your faith in Allah is, despite everything. My love and prayers for you sister.


    • Ameen and JazakAllahu Khairan! It’s taken me a long time to be content but I’m getting there alhamdulillah. Whatever Allah decides is good, whether we realise it or not. May Allah reward you well for your kind words. Ameen.


  2. I’ve said it before as well but I find your strength and patience an inspiration. May Allah make you a role model for many others who are going through a difficult time in their life. May Allah always help you and provide you with ease. I look forward to reading more of your blog sis.


  3. Assalamualaikum wa rahmatullah, I just came across you story sister, and I hope and pray to Allah that he gives u comeplete shifa ameen! And may Allah reward u immensely for all ur sufferings, in sha Allah for wverything u have been thru or are currently experiencing, Allah has given u abundant palaces in jannah, and for every person who suffers in the dunyah, he has a beautiful akhirah so be patient my sister, Allah is always with u, make him as ur frend and spk with him he will grant u shifa in sha Allah. Keep faith and know that illness is a means of expiation of sins. This is a temporary world, a dream that we all will wake up from one day and in sha Allah wen u awake in jannah u will see that it was all worth it!! May Allah always keep u happy and strong! And keep me in ur duas sister for u are a beloved of Allah, Allah tests those whom he loves because he wants to increase their reward!!!! Wasalamz xxxxxx


  4. Oh Lord that is a lot to live with but I find it very inspiring that you are still positive and I hope you always stay positive! Not many people stay positive in situations as yours and I hope Allah grants you more patience with every passing day! We need more people like you ๐Ÿ™‚


  5. Just came across your story and was really uplifted by what the strength of Imaan can help a person achieve. We really need to become like you when shaping our outlook on life. May Allah bless you with the highest stations in jan’nah sister.


  6. ‘Barbie Butt’ absolutely killed me lool
    May ุงู„ู„ู‡ bless you, grant you ease and entry into His Gardens amongst those who’ll have the highest rank . ุงู„ู„ูŽู‘ู‡ูู… ุขู…ูŠู†

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  7. Subhanallah, I haved worked with patients in the hospital with ostomies. It is not easy, especially so young to be going through this. May Allah continue to give you strength and reward inshallah!


    • Ameen ya rabb.. It was tough adapting but I’m pleased to say Allah helps me through that – I’m visually impaired yet I deal with my ostomy myself. However, it’s the aftermath of the IBD and surgeries that’s affecting me how, trying to get the PTSD under control. Please remember me in your duas sis x

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  8. ุงู„ุณู„ุงู… ุนู„ูŠูƒู… ูˆ ุฑุญู…ุฉ ุงู„ู„ู‡ ูˆ ุจุฑูƒุฉ ุญุจูŠุจุชูŠ

    I pray to Allah ‘azza wa jal to ease your sufferings, to grant you strength and sabr, to reward you, to fill your life with happiness and make you from His beloved servants.

    Dear sister, you are truly a very beautiful person mashaAllah. May Allah bless you. I’m new to your blog and I’m so inspired, to say the least. Your posts brought tears to my eyes. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not because of what you went through and are still going through but because of the immense courage you displayed and your unwavering faith in Allah and how you are spreading awareness through this blog. You are truly an inspiration habibti. I love you for Allah’s Sake. And I will remember you in my duas, always. InshaAllah.
    Take care โค๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’Ÿ


  9. Salaam

    Reading various posts throughout your blog has left me with tears in my eyes. Not from sympathy but from the courage and perspective of life that decorate every sentence I had the honour to read.
    Allah make it easy/ier to overcome the troubles we face with a beautiful patience.

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    • WaAlaykum AsSalam my dear sister,
      May Allah reward you well for your beautiful words. I truly believe that Allah sends us the strength to deal with the tests we face. Alhamdulillah always โค


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